Overcoming the impossible , it can be done , been there done that . ( Thanks Lorraine )
I am doing this 1 as an encouragement to those going through hard , even what seems to be impossible times. You can make it through but you have to be strong. If I can do it anyone can .
During my life things have happened to me , by the hand of others that just have made me wonder over and over again why me ? As a child I was not wanted , I was a girl and that is what I did wrong and was punished constantly for. The mere fact that it was not of my choosing made no difference at all. Somehow getting through childhood, after at various times , being pushed into a bonfire, then later a swimming pool at the deep end , and having had pneumonia and almost died , think I have an inkling of what its like to have to struggle. Also at times not having a penny to bless myself with ,adds to the struggle.
Made it to teens , married at 16 to escape brutal father , but had a few really good years till finally my body said after 4 children , no more this will stop . So that was that and it seemed once I could no longer have children , it was all over , I was only good while I could have them . So reluctantly I walk away after a lot of years , after a while take a risk again , and again after some time , it turns out a servant was what I was supposed to be , get out earn money give it over so he could drink it away . A sad intervention then , all the years of drinking caught up with him and he died of cancer . This time I decide enough of men who from here seem only to want a servant but fool me first into thinking there was love just to hook me , as did the next 1 , who also died of cancer .
By this time I have withdrawn into myself and have decided never again with men , and decided the only safe place to deal with men is from a distance . So onto the internet I go , thanks to my son , all ok you would think from there but no , 1 man got through to me with real love ,and we are now happy and married.
From the very start it was not easy , in fact damn near impossible owing to the vast distance between us . As you know though that too eventually worked out ,we got together and still there now. During these years of us getting together permanently we went through some damn rough times , at times not knowing how we would even feed, clothe or pay bills would happen. Add to this mix at least 3 times we were robbed , and hubby was mugged twice , and then there was what is now known as a toxic friend.
Having said all that let me say now that in those dark times , when I just wanted to curl up in a ball and never move , there always seemed to be something to cling onto. Just when it seemed there was no way out, no way of escape , something would happen to prove me wrong. The many times I should have died , there are more than what I said but thats enough to make the point , somehow someway I seemed to get through , by a coat of paint very often but make it I did .
I have always believed in God , right from a very early age , and that has not changed , some of the things that have happened to me have been unbelieveable . Some of them should have killed me , but for some reason here I am and as far as I am concerned it was God who pulled me through. I do not know what your beliefs are , but I have no doubt. There is just no explanation for why I survived ,especially that fire though I did almost lose my left leg , and spent weeks in hospital and in bandages . It is up to you what you believe or do not , you will have to sort that out at the time , but as for me it seems that with will power, the determination to stay strong and not let the buggers win that kept me going.
It can be done it is the hardest thing ever at times to overcome , but if you want to bad enough then you will . Having been there and done that I know this to be true .Even when things like health , finances , relationships all fall to pieces , if you have the desire ,strength will come if you want it enough , you just have to batten down the hatches and hold on . Tie a knot in the rope when you think you have reached the end of your rope and hold on for dear life , it will come good.
TEACHER: Donald , what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it’s H to O.